Jye Sheiu.

These months i have totally not joining any buddha activity or even a simple ocassion.
I really dunno why,i started to refuse in joining or involving in any one of them.
It seems like i'm totally dissapointed on these religious activity because of some cases or quarrel.
I'm dissapointed.

Frankly, i try to escape because i dont want to involve in any quarrel. I hate them.
What i want is peace and silence.I have changed.
I started to avoid people,ocassion and clubs.
Some will say it is actually a way to lie myself and escaping from the eye of reality.
I have to admit,i dunno how to treat and face. or actually i dont want to face.
Says who,'When there is interaction,there is quarrel and gossip'.
It is fun that everyone has their own thinking,u won't catch it 100% accurately.
I dont like to interact as i need to think what they will think and how they will treat me.
I try to avoid.
Maybe this is the factor why i avoid YMM and buddha society recently.

Master Khai Soon had changed my view and opinion.
I 'baptised' again. and i get a new name from him--Jye Sheiu 觉修
This name is actually same with my aunt--mcoh.
I told master. He told me that my name has meaning after it.
I trust him.
He looked trough me those days.
He knows what am i thinking and tried to bring me back to the way of Dhamma Walk.
I will never forget his words during the baptise.

He said,
'u know it is very hard to forgive people who hurt u before,
but if u can do so, u can be a great leader,because u can accept many things.'

I think this sentence for many days and i realise what master wanna tell me.
Forgiving others is actually equivalent with forgiving urself.

The Sabah Wesak Day gave me lots of inspiration on myself and cases around me.
I should not avoid but i have to try to accept,face and treat.
Not affected by the devil. Just like Water Lily.
I have to put down, understand and accept. Let him go and let the story end.
He must has his own reason to do so.
I can't approach and change him.
I have to change my own thinking.

Jye Sheiu,
Give more,expect less.
Try to let him go and follow the Dhamma walk to a 'sanghism' life.
Negative become positive,positive become supreme positive.
back to the way into Dhamma.

Jye and Sheiu!
觉悟吧！修行吧！
Buddha has shown me the way and i have to follow.
I will follow.
Amitabha.

Jye Shieu...
I finally know the meaning, Master.
Thanks! =)